For at least a year now I’ve made mention of my desire to get back to my “Wedding Weight” – I’ve written about my own body image and how conscious I am of being a good role model for my girls. I’ve written about my success at losing my baby weight from Amy’s pregnancy. Each season I’ve added “Getting back to my wedding weight” to my Bucket List and each season it’s not really happened. Over the last year I lost around 2 stone and then put a bit back over Christmas as you do.
Right now I’m not just overweight but obese. Actually obese. What a horrible word. I’m at a weight where Doctors try to kindly suggest that I should lose some weight, that I should move more. At a weight whereby I’m increasing my already considerable risk of diabetes, suffering raised blood pressure and putting pressure on my kidneys which have struggled through each of my pregnancies and at the moment have not fully recovered. This is not a good place to be.
Aside from the medical issues I just feel pretty rubbish about myself at the moment. Yes I’m tall, yes I hide it well (to a point) but the reality is I am really overweight and it’s just not ok. I’m sick of wearing leggings and stretchy stuff. My figure has changed a lot over the last 6 years – three pregnancies in relatively quick succession culminating in three c-sections with three babies breastfed for at least 8 months each. Unsurprisingly this has all played a part in the way my now very squashy, saggy and decidedly misshapen body looks. By far my biggest issue is with my tummy. Despite having lost the weight I gained in pregnancy with Amy I still look really pregnant (and this isn’t just in my head as I’ve been asked more than once if I’ having a baby). My legs and arms, whilst not svelte are also not that bad. My tummy makes me look and feel massive and whilst I know I will never be rid of my “section apron” I really would like to see a lot less of it!! (I will post a picture at some point but right now I’m not quite ready to share that with you!)
So . . . after much messing about and trying to lose weight but not being able to maintain any sort of focus I’ve finally taken the decision to go back to Slimming World. I’ve had great success at Slimming World in the past losing 3.5 stone in the 8 months from Chloe’s birth to our wedding. I lost my focus after our wedding and quickly gave up. My weight crept back up steadily over the course of the next year before I found myself pregnant with Amy. I know that Slimming World works for me. I also know that from my experience of trying to go it alone over the last year that I need to go to class. I need to have that element of pressure, of deadline that comes with having someone weigh you and record your weight each week. I need the support of the class.
Last night I set my personal target (this was completely in my control, Slimming World don’t set targets for you). I set my target at my wedding weight. I want this figure again . . .
So this is it. Operation Wedding Weight is on. I’ll let you know how it goes! (You can follow my Twitter and Instagram feeds for midweek updates using #OperationWeddingWeight & check out the Slimming World website if you want more information about joining yourself!)