Seriously. Where is my Christmas spirit? I realised today that there’s only just over two weeks left until Christmas and I just can’t get into the swing of it. It feels like it’s still months away. I fear this is wishful thinking on my part.
Don’t get me wrong. I LOVE Christmas. It’s my absolute favourite time of year. Without doubt. Yet this year I’m just not feeling it. I can’t get that Christmassy feeling going.
I think there are a number of reasons behind this . . .
1. My house is completely devoid of Christmas decorations
We are still in the throes of building work – well not so much building work now as frantic decorating and finishing off. Dad and Dave are working their backsides off to get our house liveable, presentable and generally Christmas ready and whilst we’re not that far off in the scheme of things we are certainly not in a position to be putting Christmas decorations up. Hopefully we’ll have “moved in” before the school holidays . . . but then actually that’s only just over a week away. I fear the Christmas tree may go up on Christmas Eve.
2. I’m not working full time
This might seem like an odd thing to say. How can not being at work mean you don’t feel Christmassy? But think about it. I’m a primary school teacher by trade so there’s a whole world of Christmas card making, glitter, excited children and Nativity based action in my Christmas build up as a rule – not so when you’re only working a couple of days a week on supply or in schools where the majority of pupils don’t actually celebrate Christmas. And of course no full time job means no Christmas Party.
3. We’re not going “home” this year
Ok that’s not strictly true – I’ve bought most of the children’s presents but I haven’t bought anything for anyone else. I’ve had a few ideas but not got round to actually making purchases. I’m never this disorganised usually but again I think I’ve been lulled into a false sense of security that Christmas is actually ages away and I’ve got loads of time. I clearly haven’t.
5. I’m JUST NOT READY
So yeah basically I think the single biggest reason I’m not feeling Christmassy is that I’m just not ready. I can’t cope with Christmas being in just over two weeks time so I think I’ve just sort of mentally refused to accept that it is. I want to postpone it for about three months – till my house is finished and we can move in to the extension properly, till I can really go to town with the Christmas decorations instead of just sticking our smallest tree up in any space I can find at the last minute. I want to be excited about having everyone round not panicking about where they’re going to sit. I want to know all my shopping is done and wrapped. I want to know that dinner is not only planned but we’ve figured out when we’re actually going to find the time to get to the supermarket and buy everything we need!